buhay single....

hiwalay na kami ng karelasyon ko ng higit pitong taon... marami sa mga kaibigan at kakilala nami ang nagulat ng malaman nila, karamihan eh (kahit corny)hindi makapaniwala. probinsya kasi sa amin kaya halos lahat eh kakilala at halos lahat eh kamag anak kung sa termino ko pa nga eh "sharing electrons" dahil ang pinsan nya ay pinsan ng pinsan mo.... kaya marami ang para bagang na involve sa aming relasyon at halos lahat sila ay nag aakalang kami na daw talaga ang magkakatuluyan dahil masyado na kaming "close" (na ang talagang ibig sabihin eh inaasahan na nilang nakapag sex na kami)

alam kung maraming mga rason silang iniisip kung bakit ganito ang nangyari at isa na dyan ang pag aakala nilang merong isa sa amin na nakahanap ng bagong mamahalin na kung sa sosyal na pagkasabi eh third party... pero we don't owe them an explanation kaya bahala na sila kung ano isipin nila

pinili kong wakasan ang isang relasyon na kung iisipin namn talaga eh pwedeng panghinayangan (sa tagal at dahil mabait din namn ang karelasyon ko) dahil tingin namin pareho eh hindi na "healthy", hindi na nakakapg bigay ligaya kundi nakakasakal na! oo nga at naiyak ako sa dumaguete dahil sa pag aakalang ngkasundo na kami sa desisyong maghiwalay pero hindi pa pala dahil sinigil pa ako naparatangang me ksalanan sa lahat ng nangyari pero sa kalaunan eh naging ok din namn at sinabi niyang naiintindihan na rin nya.

hindi pa agad dun natapos dahil kahit ok na kami ng ex ko eh humirit ang aking mahal na lola at nagtampo sa biglaang desisyon ko daw kaya kinailangan ko pa siyang lambingin at dalhin sa parlor at pgkatapos ay tinreat ng snacks at kausapin para ipaliwanag at gaya ng ex ko eh naintindihan naman ako...

ngayon im officially single and enjoying it.... wala ng kailangang paliwanagan at pakiusapan :>

trahedya at trauma

i was three years old when i first saw a person shot dead in front of me... he was shot on the forehead half meter away from me and died with eyes wide open....... he was so near me that his blood was all over me, my lacy dress and on the fur of my dog tisay. Three years after, my sister and i was kidnapped and was locked up inside a smelly, dark, vacant house in a secluded subdivision in Iligan City, lucky for us, a close family friend was in the neigborhood to visit a relative who became curious upon hearing sobs in a nearby vacant unit. when they tried to check, there i was shaking from fear that my sister might die because she was running out of breath due to her asthma... guess our kidnappers were neophytes that they were stupid enough to leave us behind without guards or something... :)


February 25 of 2000, Friday, anniversary of the EDSA revolution, around 3-4 in the afternoon, a bomb exploded inside a bus aboard the barge bound for Ozamis City from Mukas. Many died. I was spared.

and then there were a lot more.... an old woman, our neighboor, was run over by a van and died a few seconds after i have told her to wait fro me because i will help her cross the road..... a fish carrier crashed to the bus i was riding on my way to davao causing me slight ruptured muscles....

haaay i don't know how to end this post as much as i don't know why i am prone to these undesirable, unfortunate events i know there were still more but some were forgotten and some i chose to forget... :)

kumusta na?

ayos p ba? ang buhay natin? kaya pa ba?

condolence ke daniel at idak sa pagpanaw ng kanilang mga mahal sa buhay
pati na rin kay kuya jerome at sana eh mkaligtas sa peligro ang asawa ni ate fara....

oldies

Just Don't Want To Be LonelyMain Ingredient
I don't mind when you say that you're going away
Just don't wanna be lonely
And I don't care if you share Only moments a day
I just don't wanna be lonely
I'd rather be loved and needed
Depended on to give a love I can't give
When you're gone, when you're gone
I just don't want to be lonely
I'd just rather be loved
I'd just rather be loved
I don't mind when the time sets the sun to the moon
I just don't wanna be lonely
Let the stairs find you there at the end of the room
I just don't wanna be lonely
I'd rather be loved and needed
Depended on to give a love I can't give
When you're gone, when you're gone
I just don't want to be lonely
I'd just rather be loved
I'd just rather be loved
I'd rather be loved and needed
Depended on to give a love I can't give
When you're gone, when you're gone
I just don't want to be lonely
I'd just rather be loved
I'd just rather be loved

andrewfordmedina

sunog ang balat ko sa sobrang pag bababad sa araw

nakita ang boung angkan ni nemo

nangutya ng mga koreana

nakakita ng dolphin kahit nasa ilalim sila ng dagat

naranasan ko na mag bisita iglesia kahit hindi ko simbahan

tumawa kahit walang dahilan pagkatapos ng isang baso ng masarap na mango shake

uminom ng strong ice, o red horse o tuba araw-araw sa loob ng labing-isang araw

umihi sa gitna nang laot

magsawa sa dagat

mapag-usapan...........................

itago nyo ang larawan ha? at ang pagkakaibigan


salamat!